There comes a time when we get tired. We are tired of trying to get clean on our own, tired of our own drug induced ways and tired of not knowing what else to do except to continue using. Once we surrender, we can begin to feel the hope that recovery offers. We have a realization that we have to change. We become willing to try another way.
Without Drugs there is a Void
This is where we open our minds to hope and a belief that there is some higher power that can help us get through this emptiness we feel. Addiction is a selfish disease. We only believed in ourselves. We controlled ourselves and ability to control others with our manipulations and we failed trying to control our using.
It will take doing something different to get a different result. This is where our hope begins and starts to looking for a Higher Power we can believe in to restore us and help us get through letting go of this addiction.
A higher power is a personal choice
No one can “assign” a Higher Power. This is a personal choice. A choice only you can make. It just needs to be a loving, caring, and more powerful than your addiction. Humans are humans. We make mistakes, we fail. A Higher Power should never be a single person. A Higher Power doesn’t make mistakes.
There are more than 800 faith-based community organizations that span the spectrum of treatment methods per Drug Rehab.com. As the addicts mind begins to clear, they begin to think about the important things in life. They begin to have spiritual awakenings.N
Some Types of Higher Powers
- The Father
- The Holy Trinity
- Jesus Christ
- Mother Earth
These are just a few. There are a lot of people that feel serenity out in nature. Some take a walk and just feel gratitude for what is around them. Some had a relationship with a Higher Power before addiction and started reconciling that back. Others search for a Higher Power by praying. They do not know who or what they are praying to. They may not even believe that anyone or anything is listening. But they reach out anyway in hopes of finding or feeling something. In time, they begin to see a Higher Power they believe in.
Others find peace and serenity through activities like walking, running, meditating, or dancing. Then there are others who find comfort and purpose in painting, drawing, sculpting and writing.
My Higher Power:
When I first got clean, I did not feel worthy of God’d love. I felt like I let Him down. I used the Group for a while just starting out. A group of people sharing the same goal, to stay clean. As time went on, I began to search and found God. My God shows up right on time. Not my time but his.
He is a good God that is love and power. He is all knowing and personable. I do the foot work and turn over things I have no control over. Evidence that my God exists is visible when I look out at a beautiful sunset or a thunderstorm. I feel God when I am watching the leaves fall to the ground with its brilliant colors.
How do we continue a relationship with God?
First is to surrender every day to the God of your understanding. Communication with God is mandatory. Prayer and meditation. I feel God communicates to me through other people. I feel he puts people in my path for a reason and a season. We have to be open-minded to hear or see it.
Lean on the Serenity Prayer for guidance. We learn what we can do something about and know what we need to turn over. That gets easier the longer we stay clean. Learning to trust God with my life scared me. Then I look back when I was in total charge of it and know God does a much better job.
If we do not continue to have a relationship with our Higher Power, we will start to take over things and make decisions we made in the past that were not in our best interest. In the long run, we would pick back up and get high.
With saying that, I have to remember where I came from. Remembering that, makes gratitude and communicating with my God easier. I do not want to go backwards. I do not ever want to be in that position ever again. It was killing me every day.
Remember where you were a month before getting clean, Remember what you said and did to others. Remember that animalistic behavior you did. And then thank your Higher Power for his love and compassion.
There are spiritual principles that come with beginning a relationship with your Higher Power. It is hope, faith, and trust. When these principles are integrated in our lives, we can be humble In NA, there is a 3rd step prayer that says, “Take my will and my life, guide me in my recovery and show me how to live.” It helps me all the time to align my focus on my Higher Power.
The need for a Higher Power started when I felt that emptiness inside when the drugs were gone. I needed something greater than myself or this addiction to fill this void. If not, I will go back out to fill it with drugs/alcohol because that is all I knew how to do. Or maybe do other addictive behaviors like gambling, sex, work, or food. It would definitely be something.
Getting and staying clean takes work. So I began to seek help from others and my Higher Power. This is a big step in the right direction of continued sobriety. Just focus on today and nothing that happens is more that you can handle if you believe and have faith in the process.
All the best to you all